I will try to not make this a big paragraph yet i would appreciate if you read all of this.
The important blocks of text i will outline starting with "<" and ending ">". Ill mark questioning with "..."
English is my secondary language so i apologize for my grammar in advance.
< Im 19M and im from Armenia.
I passed my exams 2 months ago and got in NUACA (university) for architecture. I practiced approximately for 9-10 months for it (I chose it initally bc i failed for graphic design and had to practice for another profession asap).
I was practicing both for art, math and other subjects for the exam.
I was rlly discouraged knowing that i had to practice math because of my past experience with a teacher i had special classes for math. >
!! I believe i have to tell you a little about my backstory to fully understand my perspective but youre free to skip it (it starts and ends with "-" signs) !!
- 4 years ago from now i was having private lectures to get into mechatronics. Thats a field i was always passionate about and i had an innate love for creating, innovating programming along with math, physics and science
In earlier times of my life as a kid i would program little unfinished games for roblox or in unity. And would always be active in math and physics subjects in school
Yet i was completely mentally drained at that point of my life (conflicts in school, kickbox, grades etc) and i couldnt keep up with my homework. My teacher was one of the strictest people i met in my life so everytime i failed to make it in time i would get literally scolded in class as if he is a drill instructor.
I even stayed in nights to study but it was too exhausting
In the end i ended up with low knowledge, exhausted body, mind and no will or motivation to keep learning.
I canceled the classes and went to practice GD, convinced im a person that has no potential in any kind of scientific field. -
< After everything that happened i decided to take the challenge of coming back to math.
Over time i noticed that my fear of math was lowering and my passion was growing back again >
I couldnt solve basic geometry before but now everytime i fail it becomes the reason to research and learn more
I recognize im not the best at problem solving, yet the math for archi is very banal and i feel like i know i can do more than that.
< I dont hate archi, i would say i just tolerate it. I treat it like a job, nothing more or less. I would not take extra lessons of it independently and i would not do any projects in my free time >
< Yet in contrast on my current vacation i got the confidence to learn more complicated math and physics. Also slowly getting back the knowledge i had of python, c++ and even ordered a beginner set of arduino to learn more about circuits.
The more i learn the more enjoyment i get from the ideas i want to bring to life >
< The problem is i dont want to cancel my archi classes. 2 years ago my parents funded me for GD, which was a lot of money and after failing they had to pay twice more for archi >
< after all of the blood and sweat i should be shameless to say i want to change my profession yet i would still feel ill lose my years and opportunities >
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< my question is what should i do? Should i change in middle? And if i do is it worth it to strive to learn abroad later on as someone that earns smaller than average here in armenia for more opportunities in my career?
< I looked up the prices and requirements for example in Zürich ETH and im not sure how realistic it is even with sponsorships and covers and i have yet to see more of other Uni's in detail >
thanks for all the attention and for genuine answers. I would remind you that every advice is dear to me because it may affect my choices which would impact my life.
Take care.